Burlesk Bangus

It’s coming around again — the secrets I’ve been keeping here inside my head. I’m killing time. It’s breaking out from me, slowly unraveling. Well, isn’t obvious? Are you waiting for a sign that it’s not too late? I’m coming down. My conscience is killing me. I’m slowly unraveling. Forgive me, I’m falling again. Please give me something to believe in. I’m sorry, I did it again. I’m drowning in my sleep and it just feels so right. Help me. Don’t let me slip away. Conclusion’s not foregone. I’m hanging on. Just don’t pull out my hand.　

We were supposed to be together until the bitter end but the end came quickly for you. And now you want to pretend that you didn’t say those little words. You didn’t promise me your heart. That should all be a memory and it’s okay that we’re apart. But I’m not okay with the way things are. All I want to do is cry. Every breath I take holds passion for you and I can’t seem to say goodbye. I want you to tell me you love me and to kiss me once more. I want everything you promised just like it was before. I hold my breath and wait for a glimpse of what once was. I can’t seem to get it back, though. And I am holding on because the memories of you are too precious. Your touch still warms my skin. Your presence has been burned on my soul and I don’t think I can give in. So I will continue to lay and wait for you to come back through my door. My head knows it’s no use but my heart longs for more.

(Source: memorykill)

Right now, I’m in front of your door, knocking, waving. But still you’re not coming. Do they know what’s inside of me? Why they been hiding you from me? I have good intentions. You know me since the first. You know me since we met, right? But you can’t even fight for me. You always think about you’re family, but what about happy moment from the start? Does it gonna end up broken heart? Tell me.

Will you just stop yelling at me? Talk to me in decent way. Between this doors, why don’t you just ask me to go? Don’t look back anymore. Is this what they want? Is this what they need? Just let me think of it.

It’s kinda hard to tell you all the things I hate about you. But what can I do if it’s so lovely to see you? Well, here I am. I’m in front of you, trying to complain about what’s happening.　

We were supposed to be together until the bitter end but the end came quickly for you. And now you want to pretend that you didn’t say those little words. You didn’t promise me your heart. That should all be a memory and it’s okay that we’re apart. But I’m not okay with the way things are. All I want to do is cry. Every breath I take holds passion for you and I can’t seem to say goodbye. I want you to tell me you love me and to kiss me once more. I want everything you promised just like it was before. I hold my breath and wait for a glimpse of what once was. I can’t seem to get it back, though. And I am holding on because the memories of you are too precious. Your touch still warms my skin. Your presence has been burned on my soul and I don’t think I can give in. So I will continue to lay and wait for you to come back through my door. My head knows it’s no use but my heart longs for more.

A nice deserted beach. Lost in a field of wheat. A lazy jungle beat while dancing cheek to cheek. A sailboat out to sea. A small house in Capri. Two movie tickets free for only you and me.

I’d like a moonless night when all the stars are bright, if only you and I are holding real tight. I’d like a tandem bike or try a mountain hike if only you and I are hugging real tight.

Together we will find a hideaway where we can stay from day to day. We’ll find a hiding place where we can promise a love we will cherish from this moment until forever. It will be you and me together.

I recall the look in your eyes and the way that I felt when I heard you say, “Where did the loving go?” It’s funny how it all slipped away. I remember all that we had because our love was so right and so very strong. I would give anything, knowing where we might have gone wrong. I recall the moment you said, “It doesn’t work anymore, and it’s come to the end.” I would do anything just to see you again. I remember all that we had and it’s so very sad when there’s nothing to say. Where did the loving go? It’s funny how it all slipped away.

Something is coming over me now. It’s something that I don’t understand. But I would give all the world if I could have you back again. I want to make it perfectly clear. I’m never gonna make it from here. I can only say that I love you.

If I could take over this world that we’re in, I wanna reach out to every human being. I’ll take all the sorrows from every goodbye. I’ll shed all the tears so no one ever needs to cry. But nobody cares for me. Nobody here needs me. A love to share but nobody dares. Nobody cares for me.

I’ll summon the oceans to drown every pain. I wanna be shelter to the countless in shame. Erase every conflict from every divide. I wanna give every little thing until I die. But nobody cares for me. Nobody here needs me. A love to share but nobody dares. Nobody cares for me.

I don’t remember when I started begging to eat.

I’m too shy to look at you straight in the eye. I decided that I should bid goodbye to my pride. I stepped into your life with both my arms opened wide and though you didn’t liked, you have extended my life. You are one of the million people passing this way everyday. Many times, you’d ignore souls like me. Ever since I can remember, I’ve been begging to feed my body. Ever since I can remember, I’ve been roaming the streets. Ain’t nobody gonna help me. Not even you, not anybody. Ain’t nobody gonna help me but myself. Gotta steal to eat because nobody cares. There’s nothing left to do. Gotta steal to eat. What more can I do?

We haven’t seen each other for a while. We’re two ships passing in the night. The gulf between us seems a thousand miles wide. It’s been a long time since I’ve heard your voice. I only hear it in my dreams. To live like this could never be by choice, so why don’t we make things better? Loving you then, loving you now. Nothing has changed so let’s make a vow.

Whatever problems come to test our strength, I want to face them all with you. To keep you close, I’m going to be in the end. This time it’s forever. Let’s start again. Release the pain. Let’s build a world with a view.

Yesterday is just a memory of our fantasy. Why don’t we live it again? If meeting you was written in the stars, don’t stay too far. Your love is where I begin. After all that we’ve been through, you know I believe in you.

Take me as I am. Put your hand in mine, now and forever. Here I stand before you now. Deep inside I always knew that it was you. You and me. Two hearts drawn together, bound by destiny. It was you and you for me. Every road leads to your door, every step I take forever more.

Take me as I am. Put your heart in mine. Stay with me forever because I am just a man who never understood. I never had a thing to prove until there was you. You and me. Then it all came clear so suddenly how close to you that I wanna be.

Do you believe a love could run so strong? Do you believe a love could pass you by? There was no special one for me. I was the lonely one, you see. But then my heart lost all control. Now, you’re all that I know.

Just say you’ll love me for the rest of your life. I got a lot of love and I don’t want to let go. Will you still love me for the rest of my life? Because I can’t go on if I’m on my own.

Sadya ba talagang ganyan? Palakad-lakad ka’t nakatungo? Saan patungo? Ngayong wala ka na, kailangang masanay na muling nag-iisa. Saan ka na kaya? Huwag mo akong sisihin kung minsan ika’y hanapin. Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na.

Nasanay lang sigurong nand’yan ka. Hindi ko inakalang puwede kang mawala. Ayan na nga. Nababato, nalulungkot. Luha’y napapawi ng singhot at talukbong ng kumot. Huwag mo akong sisihin kung minsan ako’y iyakin. Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na.